A brief meditation on life and friends...

I just collapsed onto my bed a moment ago completely exhausted and ready for bed. I was lying there, my whole body tingling as it does when it is finally allowed to stop lifting, walking, jumping , sitting and pulling and just lie still. I’m so ready to sleep. I’m so bloody awake.

And the thoughts start running through my head...

And I get to thinking about my day and the people in it. The majority of the day was spent staring at my computer screen at the useless words I was trying in vain to force together. I went to a tutorial and listened quietly, did a hastily prepared presentation in German, and had a cookie for lunch. I met some friends from abroad and realised I’m going to miss them when they go home, just like I miss my Koblenz friends and the old uni crowd from last year. I briefly crossed paths with the 3 other residents of my house, and I talked to a friend, about how another friend doesn’t make time anymore.

People come and go all the time, I know. It’s just not the nature of life to offer anything permanent and unchanging. Friends can be distant, when you want them near, or fade away from your life, without a moment’s notice. But sometimes I wish I could just hold on to everyone at once. Because if there’s one thing I regret about today, it’s that cookie, but the only thing I’ll remember in a week’s time, is who I saw and who I missed.

And then all of a sudden I remember I left my computer on. That means I have to haul myself up again. Oh I’m so ready to sleep.